Idk after a while I just don’t even feel welcome.. Even if it’s not the case I always feel Like I’m bothering them, and that bothers me deep down. It’s like I can’t feel the feelings I am supposed to, just the ones I THINK I should be feeling.. you know? Like, why the hell am I so detached. It’s gotten to the point where I more comfortable with people like me. Who probably will be affected by me randomly disappearing, but they won’t know exactly how to feel; so they’ll feel nothing. I just push people away whether they’re trying to get closer or even if they’re on their way out of life already. It’s a fucked up kind of attitude when you have that “This person doesn’t really care, why should I?” outlook on life, I test people. They fail 80% of the time. They Really Don’t Care.